Four years ago today I married Tim.
There’s a lot to say about that day but one of my favorite moments happened during the ceremony. Our pastor encouraged us to write letters to each other and on the day, he would read them on our behalf (brilliant). Ever since then, Tim and I exchange anniversary letters every year. When we were doing pre-marital counseling, one of the conversations we had was how we receive love. I sheepishly admitted that yes I love words… but I love me a written word! There is something about the written word that fills my love tank to full. I think it’s because I can hold it, mull over it and remind myself of it. Written words are so special because they are prompted not by a social cues (as spoken words often are) but by affections of the heart.
To commemorate our four years, I dug up my letter I wrote to Tim on our 0 year anniversary:
First of all, before I forget to tell you today, you look really great in your tux! All that working out with P90X really paid off!
Tim, I am excited to be standing next to you today. I don’t know if I have told you this, but when I was in 9th grade, I planned out my wedding down to what the cake’s flavor would be. Since then, about once a year, I dreamt about walking down the aisle with my dad and then getting to the top of the aisle and seeing a man in a tux with his face blurred out. It would scare me out of my slumber every single time. When you asked me to marry you, those nightmares stopped. My excitement about the perfect wedding evolved to excitement about marrying you.
Tim, I love you.
I love that you are a good friend to the people around you. I love that you are always down for adventure and are totally responsible as you are. I love that for you the reason behind doing something is just as important as the act itself. I love that you love to eat. I love how your smile takes up your whole face. I love hearing about you talk about God because it always makes me want to love Him in bigger and new ways.
Thank you Tim for giving me a clearer picture of how Jesus loves me. Thank you for wanting the best for us no matter the cost. Thank you for loving peace.
Though dating you has been immensely fun and growing, I hear that this marriage stuff is a million times more fun and growing. I’m looking forward to walking beside you through it all. I want to be a wife that lightens the load of life for you every day. I want to be the bringer of encouragement, comfort and joy your heart… all this while being the president of the Tim Sohn Fan Club.
I have no idea what God has in store for us, but I know that if we make Jesus all of our hope and all of our joy, we’ll be more than okay. I love you and I couldn’t be happier that it’s your hand that I’m holding today.